Sunday, August 28, 2005

Yes, I have changed....

Quite a few people who have known me have told me I've changed. Some view this is a positive, some a negative. For some reason this song snuck into my head earlier when I was pondering an email I got from an old friend about my "changing".

Rows and flows of angel hair,
And ice cream castles in the air,
And feather canyons everywhere,
I've looked at clouds that way.
But now they only block the Sun,
They rain and snow on everyone.
So many things I would have done,
But clouds got in my way.

I've looked at clouds from both sides now,
From up and down, and still somehow,
It's cloud illusions I recall,
I really don't know clouds, at all.

Moons and Junes and ferris wheels,
The dizzy dancing way you feel
As every fairy tale comes real.
I've looked at love that way.

But now it's just another show,
You leave 'em laughing when you go.
And if you care, don't let them know.
Don't give yourself away.

I've looked at love from both sides now,
From give and take, and still somehow,
It's love's illusions I recall.
I really don't know love, at all.

Tears and fears and feeling proud,
To say I love you right out loud.
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds,
I've looked at life that way.

But now old friends are acting strange.
They shake their heads; they say I've changed.
Well something's lost but something's gained,
In living every day.

I've looked at life from both sides now,
From win and lose and still somehow,
It's life's illusions I recall.
I really don't know life, at all.

I've looked at life from both sides now,
From up and down and still somehow,
It's life's illusions I recall.
I really don't know life, at all.

Thank you Joni Mitchell.....

3 comments:

Cyberseaer said...

Is it that you are changing your mind, life, the way people see you, or is it .......THE CHANGE?!?!?! (Insert thunder and loud deep dark tones of the piano) If it is the last thing, then you just blame it an imbalances of chemicals. That should be good for a month or so. LOL

Life is in flux. Ever changing and not sitting still. To be set in your ways makes a person unbending, unforgiving, and just plain cranky as that person lives on. You live, gain more experience and you question more. The ever lasting journey to find the truth.

When you see things that question what you believe, you must assess and grow. To deny things that go against what you believe just because it is contary to what you believe is stubborn, selfish, stupid, and dangerous. If you examine the things that challenge your beliefs and then decide whether or not to throw them aside is what we are suppose to do. Looking for the truth was never easy and hard to swallow at times.

Maybe the people around you should question themselves before they question why you are changing. When I was younger, I felt abortion was a woamn's right to choose. But when I became a father and saw my daughter's eyes look at me with wonderment and newness, my views changed. At that moment, it was inconcievable to me that any one would want to destory a beautiful gift as a child. That changed happened to my at the ripe old age of 26. Ten years later, I have changed alot in my views and they still are changing.

Chnage is good. If people can't see it, then that is their problem.

Unknown said...

Thanks C and Bob, I agree with you that if we are go continue to grow chances are we are going to change.

The more you learn, see and experience some of the beliefs you have are confirmed and strengthened while some? You realize you weren't necessary wrong, but don't see quite the same anymore.

Some of this is me changing not just when it comes to politics but what I want out of life, I am not the same person I was even a year ago. Nor will I ever be again.

However C, I'm old but not old enough to use "the change" yet as an excuse - lmao -- When that does hit? Might be time for people to run and hide -

hehehe

:-)

Hooda Thunkit (Dave Zawodny) said...

Lisa,

I only know you from what I've read on ToledoTalks.com where I lurked for a couple of months before posting myself, and I've noticed a change.

I've changed too. And I hope that we all continue to grow and change.

Like it or not, we affect each other in so many subtle ways, without consciously noticing that it's happening.

When this stops, we’re dead...

Literally!