Karma or

the God never gives you more than you can handle theory.....

I often console myself with the karma theory that eventually everything equals out, especially when you see people that are pretty downright mean or hateful that seem to glide thru life. Whether thru some twist of fate or maybe some failure on my own part, my life seems to go from chaos to crisis and back again. Granted, it's never boring, but when I hear my grandmother in the back of my mind saying

"Lisa, God never gives you more than he thinks you can handle"....I can't help saying, "umm excuse me, God? Could you ease up a bit here? Glad you have confidence in me but, I really have had enough. A little less faith in my abilities would be reallllyyyyy appreciated about now".

Given that my family has survived most of this with me we can laugh at some of the things that could only happen to us, me especially. A more serious person would feel as if God had painted a bullseye on my back. I prefer to think of it as I create havoc with the whole system of odds.

An old one rather than whine about the present, I was told I probably was not going to be able to have children, that if I were to conceive at all, it would probably take years of attempts. Most certainly I was going to need fertility treatments. My first husband and I decided we might as well start trying, figuring it would take some time and talked about the different fertility options available at the time. First month of trying? I got pregnant. Yeah okay that was just a fluke, a miracle if you will. Never even talked about trying again, then voila a year later? I'm pregnant again. Needless to say since I've have five children now and lost twins? I don't think it was that impossible for me to get pregnant. Nor did I have the thrill of actually "trying" cept the first time - lol.

So, I've decided the whole "God moves in mysterious ways" really means? God has a totally twisted sense of humor.

:-)